It’s been exactly two months now since David Bowie died. I’m
still not sure how to process it…I suppose that’s why it’s taken me 60 days to cobble
together this post. I can’t say that any other celebrity death has ever affected
me this deeply. Most times I just shrug these deaths off with a curt, “Well,
that sucks” then I move on with my life.
Just think about it for a minute:
Ziggy Stardust has returned to life on Mars with his badass Spiders in
tow.
The Thin White Duke has snorted his last line of premium blow at the
swanky after-party.
The Goblin King has been eternally spurned by the haughty, teenage
girl.
Lazarus lies dormant in his grave with no hope of resurrection.
Hell, I was still tearing up a few days ago when I showed my
daughter the classic “Life
on Mars?” video on You Tube. I guess it just boils down to the fact that
David Bowie died with aforethought, grace, style and virtuosity. That’s better
than most people live, goddamn it. It
makes me infinitely sad that someone of his creative stature is no longer with
us and I now have to listen to Donald-Fucking-Trump’s hateful diatribes on a
daily basis.
It’s funny, the first thing I thought about when I heard Bowie
died was one of those awkward, teenage moments that I seemed to have a good many
of back in the day:
I was home on break from college and during those breaks I
would pick up a few shifts at the local Acme supermarket to make a few bucks. On this
particular evening, I was waiting for my mother to return home with the car so
I could drive to work. I had the stereo on in the living room while I was
waiting and soon, the smooth, Philly-Soul beats of “Young Americans” wafted
throughout the room. I quickly sprung to my feet, raising the volume on the
stereo to ear-splitting levels (because good music ALWAYS needs to be played LOUD) as I did this. Before I knew it, I was
dancing…spinning and grinning like a first class buffoon. What can I say? The sweet,
soulful music possessed me in that moment and I was a dancin’ fool of a white
boy.
But, alas, all good things must come to an end. As I was
completing a twirl that would have made one of the Temptations blush, I swung
about to find my mother and brother staring at me from the doorway. I’m not
sure how long they had been watching me, but it was long enough.
They were heartily laughing at me as I turned off the
stereo, collected the car keys and made a quick exit, sincerely hoping to never
speak of this moment again. But, truth be told, I always recalled that moment,
and the song itself, rather fondly.
In my estimation, there are a lot of people this crazy world
could do without… people who are just sucking in good air that the rest of us
could be using. David Bowie definitely wasn’t one of those people…
…and this crazy world is just a bit more terrible now that
he’s gone from it. That’s a fact.
I'm equally crushed. I saw Bowie on his Serious Moonlight tour at the Norfolk Scope. a high school boyfriend gave me Bowie Live in Philadelphia double album for Christmas. I saw Labyrinth in the theatre first run. now my kids listen to him. He was always interesting. I'm still grieving.
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading, Carla. Yes, he was definitely always interesting! Unfortunately, I never got to see him in concert. That's something I seriously regret now...
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